and I know why

take a guess
really
its right on the tip of my tampon


:(


anyway

my life is falling apart
here is a list of things that are currently malfunctioning in my life:

mypod
backup zune
camera lens
flat iron (I fucking stepped on the thing)
my manual alarm clock
my scanner
my windows word

I mean
WHAT THE FUUUUUCCCKKK
all these important fucking things!!
and most of it, i don't even know WHY they are going haywire
and the other half IS MY FAULT
ugh

my life in general is an overall mess
like, nothing is WRONG with it per say
but I seem to be falling part myself

I don't take care of myself is what I mean
I wake up everyday at 2
I don't even attempt to show daily
I am not doing all the commissions I have been asked to do
my BMI has reached a VERY un-healthy level for me (even with my acceptance of my chubby status)
and food intake keeps increasing, while my level of exercise has reached almost zero
and I am constantly sick from OVER eating

ugh
I am just not using my time wisely
all the things I could be doing with this summer
and all I am doing to getting fat and lazy
and breaking shit
and its MY fault

man
FML, you know?
Im such a glutton/sloth
its depressing

in other news
I finished my re-read of the seventh harry potter book at work today
I forgot how AMAZING that book was
its was so brilliant, tied every end possible together, and was generally entertaining and stimulating
and I cried like a baby at the end
I had to try and stop though, I was at work
:\

I think I might read the 6th book over again now that i think about it
or the 5th for that matter, becuase it is my FAVORITE book ever
I love the books that have to do with full thrown rebellion
like in the end of the 7th, when all the Hogwarts came together to fight
or in the 5th when everyone got together to fight Umbridge and the ministry
I love the idea of rebellion
but I have never had anything I was willing to rebel
or at least, I never had something I was willing to rebel that OTHER people were willing to rebel WITH me

oh well
:)